Monday, March 31, 2008

A not so "Happy Anniversary" to me....


Anniversaries are supposed to be a time for celebrations, laughter and happiness. For this one day, this isn't a time to laugh, I don't smile or make parties.... This is the day that my Son Bryan died in a car accident, 4 years ago. He was just 24, engaged and my oldest living child. I miss him, I always will and I have a piece of my heart missing...
I sure wish I could have one of them bear hugs you used to give me and the" I love you Mom" you would say as you were squeezing me tight.
I love you Son, So much has happened since you have been gone.
I quit using Cocaine for good, I know you would be happy.
Dad's job has changed and it was for the better.
Dad misses you EVERY day, He always says "If Bryan were here, we would"......
Papa carries your obit in his truck just so you're close to him, he really took it hard. He wanted you to come be a bug man with him....
Oma and I cry each time we talk about what a good Son, Grandson and Brother you were...
(why do all the good ones die young)
Grandma Burges has regrets and they haunt her, but I told her it's ok, in the end we all must face the facts of our downfalls.....
Jessica has the most beautiful baby Daughter, one you would adore....
Erin and Justin almost didn't make it, but they are still trying. Erin misses you Son, I don't think she was ready to say Good Bye...
William actually graduated High School and is now working hard in your place beside Dad....
I am still me full of dreams and no direction....
Well son......
I'll be seeing you someday, maybe sooner than I think, when I get there, I hope you're waiting for me and I cant wait for that " I love you Mom" and that bear hug......
I Love You, Mom

I guess in life we learn to give and for sure I've given lots.... I would hope that as you read this you don't feel sorry for me, or even have tears. What I hope you do is take from this the will to talk to your Children as much as you can. To love them as they deserve to be loved and to remember that list IS short and time is slight....
Thank you each for being my Friend or at least a person who cares enough to read this .....
Sugar to each of you and Make it the BEST day!

25 comments:

nursemyra said...

sugar I can't imagine the pain of losing a son

*hugs*

Zubli Zainordin said...

This post reminds me of the ones I love and are no longer here with me. I can understand...

Daddy Papersurfer said...

*hugs*

Catscratch Diva said...

Hold tight to your memories and love. Love you.

Not a Granny said...

Hugs!

EllorionsAngel said...

I am taking it hard this year. I was dreading this day but alas it is here and I have to deal with the pain. I love you so much. I miss him so much too. This is the whole reason I NEED to be close to you guys. I wasn't ready to say goodbye and I didn't get the chance. I will always remember the day I left that July and I got a hug and a kiss on the cheek and an I love you from him. I guess that was my goodbye. I love you guys. Give everyone a hug and a Kiss for me.
XOXO
Queen Jr.

EllorionsAngel said...

Also I forgot to tell you I did a blog today...I love you!
XOXO
Queen Jr.

70steen said...

Sugar it must be the hardest thing in life to cope with.
Much love and hugz in support hun xx

Olga, the Traveling Bra said...

Oh Sugar - My heart does go out to you...it is almost more than I can bear to think about. I think you are one of the bravest, strongest, and truly remarkable women I know. {{{{{HUGS!}}}}}

sylvie d said...

Hugs Sugar x

Sugar Queens Dream said...

To all that left comments..... Thank YOU.

darlene said...

What a wonderful tribute to him Judy....god bless...=)

John C said...

::soft smile:: You got a big heart that keeps goin, Judy. That's why your one of the people I look up to.

Blessings.

Sugar Queens Dream said...

Myra, It's hard and there's no prize in the end... Life goes on, that is the important lesson...
It's life's Lessons keep making us laugh, learn and love...
Judy

Sugar Queens Dream said...

Zubli, To keep a person alive in our life we must have memories and we must think bake to them often...
Best, Just

Sugar Queens Dream said...

Daddy P, Hugs back my dear friend, You are one of my fondest memories.... You make me smile daily!
lurv, judy

Sugar Queens Dream said...

Diva, I will and you do the same, Remember what is young and dumb now will be a much nicer person once they grow up and have children... I think you understand what I'm talking about~~
Always, Judy

Sugar Queens Dream said...

Granny, Hugs back... I know you are probably one of the best "not a Grannies" I know~~
Hugs, Judy

Sugar Queens Dream said...

Queen Jr., remember life is for the living, death is yet a mystery. Live and laugh my darling time is short...
Love, Mom

Sugar Queens Dream said...

70's if you have not walked there you can't understand BUT, I adore you for the loving friend you are. I am honored knowing you...
Judy

Sugar Queens Dream said...

Olga, my dear friend, knowing you through your blog is something I wouldn't trade for anything, knowing you as a friend is something I will always cherish....
My best to you.... Judy

Sugar Queens Dream said...

Sylvie, You are the sweetest woman I know, I adore you...
Judy

Sugar Queens Dream said...

John, I think of all the people I have met Blogging, I feel honored most, meeting you. You are a wonderfully unselfish person. I wish you all that you deserve in everything you do and all you accomplish...
My absolute best to you, Judy

Sugar Queens Dream said...

Darlene, what a wonderful friend you are. I am amazed by the love you share every time you write. Love, Judy

debey said...

I am so sorry, my ''comment'' is so belated. Please know that I think of you often. I resently read a statement that went something like this...
a grieving mother would lay in the casket, and be burried with her child. but she doesn't, because ''she knows'' her other children can't handle any more sorrow.[ain't that the truth...]
hugs, my friend
debey