Tip toeing thru the boxes ....

Everywhere I look I see boxes.... Boxes marked with "sewing" "LR" "Bathroom" "Christmas" "Halloween" etc. I ask myself , "Will it ever end" I say..... Not likely! As I see it we had boxes in the shack house we just moved from. They had been there since the last moving days, So its likely they will not disappear again. Well maybe, We have made a promise in front of God and all of mankind that we will indeed start getting rid of stuff.... Georg and I started at the other house but, as time went on, we got more hurried and anxious to move out of the old house and into our new home so we quit sorting. This happens as one gets tired of looking and remembering . With this in mind I have started re-thinking what is a need and what is a want.

The move was very hard on me in more ways than one. My body just about gave up on me and decided that it would show me the end result if I didn't take time to rest and let the aches heal. For the past 2 days now I have rested, well sort of. I baked Chocolate Chip Cookies yesterday, I was having a crave for Chocolate and I love cookies .... I also stuffed a chicken with bread and corn bread dressing that was "Oh My God Good"! I cant find my camera so no pictures...... I will make it up to Y'all some other time....
Anyway, I was telling you why this move was difficult on me, I realized just how much I miss my Son Bryan, He told me about 2 months before he passed away that he would always be here for me and that he would always take care of me.... I had to face the fact that it was just not to be. We often make promises that are not in our control to keep. We must live each day as if its our last and try and remember it.
I was packing things in my closet and found the paper work from his funeral, his wallet,his ear ring and I also found his shaving kit, in there was his brush and razor, a can of shaving cream and some Old English after shave, which I thought strange because he was only 24 and used AXE. I realized then how final death is and that we[the ones left behind] are the ones that ache for our losses. I cried as I looked at love letters and cards from him and his Girl Friend Chenoa, The promises they had made and the love they shared. It really made me think about how much we all lost.
I saw the autopsy report again, I had forgot something that struck me to the very core when I read it the first time, on his hand Chenoa had wrote in indelible ink the words " I love you" they were surrounded by a heart.....it was still on his hand and when the Medical examiner wrote his report, he had recorded even that small detail. I yearn for my Son to be alive so that I can tell him just how much I loved him and how he always made me proud...... There's always unfinished business when most people die, things left to say, promises to be kept, life left still needing to be lived.... But death is final.....

I think that moving made me happier in some ways, but also made me realize that sometimes things are broke and cant be fixed no matter what.... I'll explain that some other time..... I'm sorry but I just don't want to rehash that at this point. I think that some times we romanticize certain things as a way to keep them alive.

I also have found things I didn't know I had like a set of 3 baskets with Roosters painted on them, I wish I knew who gave them to me LOL, I would like to thank them because they make a nice wall decoration.... I found bag of yarn that my Mom gave me to make a Afghan as if that's gonna happen LOL.....
I found I am really in need of more bins for things and we can have 7 Christmas Trees this year if we want, because I have enough ornaments and lights to decorate the earth! Ye haw
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I still need a bird house though because there are birds every where here and since I spend a lot of time smoking outside now I would like to watch them.......
I bet all of you don't know I love doing Jig Saw puzzles ! I have about 25 of them I have done just need to sell them now at a yard sale, as once I do one, I never do it again.....

I love my Kitchen I have so much room for dishes and all of my Cake Decorating stuff fits in my pantry that's a God send.....
I would love my Laundry area if the wall socket for the Dryer fit, Its a four prong and we have a 3 prong dryer LOL LOL...
OK that's it for today here at my new home, I'll be back tomorrow I hope with better stuff to entertain you...
Peace!